A Glimpse

Yes, I know I haven't been here much and that I have posted a few "excuse" entries along the way, but I thought I would share this little story with you, just to give you some idea of how my life has been going lately:

My pansy-assed mama's boy of a downstairs neighbor got into it with his live-in girlfriend over some dog she brought home or something, so I haven't heard her down there in the last few days. But ever the temper-tantrum-throwing wuss, he wanted to make damn certain we all felt his pain, and so has been waking at the bonnie hour of 4 in the AM all week long. Now this, in and of itself, is no big deal, but he has one of those home theaters, and he likes to listen to music and watch TV to start his morning off. Of course, he prefers the bass be very loud for this early-morning programming... of course. And, of course, this programming is bass-heavy, of course.

Today, I'm not sure if I beat him to the punch or he woke me as usual, but I got up around 3:30 and couldn't get back to sleep. Luckily, Scream was on, so I watched that and smoked a cigarette or two and kicked-around a bit until he carried his sad sack to work at 7:00. I got back to sleep around 7:30 and slept until almost 10:30 and have basically been walking around in a fog for the last two hours.

In fact, what prompted this little essay on the sadness of my life is that I walked into the kitchen to see the pot of tea I'd made this morning and set to steep, still setting there. Now I'll have to throw the whole thing out and start all over because it's probably turned - no sense chancing it, either way.

This is a real event, but it's also the perfect metaphor for my life over the last two weeks: a lot of pointless running around simply because I am awake, accomplishing nothing - just spinning wheels - and by the end of the whole thing, I'm exhausted... and still completely behind on everything. All I've been able to do is lie around and try my best to catch an hour or two of sleep here and there along the way - to no avail.

So it isn't that I've lost my ambition or anything so much as I've simply had no time with which to be ambitious. Still, today's a new day and tomorrow will be as well, so we'll see how things go. I know I'll get a few things out today and probably throughout the weekend, so we're just taking it as it comes.

© C Harris Lynn, 2008